Today I finished the audiobook of Vladimir Nabokov’s 1955 Lolita read by Jeremy Irons – the voice of Scar in Disney’s The Lion King. Lolita was moving because it pushed me to think outside the boundaries that encircle my sexuality. It made me question the diameter of the chalk circle that prescribes my sexuality.
Around each of our personal circles, society draws an even larger chalk circle around all of us. Anyone outside that social circle, or known to be beyond that larger circle is abnormal. Privately, all of us in our own have imagined, even if beyond our control something outside our normal circle. This leads me to believe that we each have two circles. The first circle is drawn publicly and conservatively around what we have lead people to believe about our sexuality. The second circle is around what we know about ourselves, and/or refuse to acknowledge, that is our second invisible circle.
Lolita is the journal of a man totally obsessed with his second circle. Though the plot is about the crime of pedophilia, the captivating story is a satire of love, America, and sexuality.